Flipping open the cover, I saw the heading: "December 1961." Geesh, I thought. That was the month I was born. Then, I saw the first entry date: "Dec. 24." Wow! Six days before my birth! For the next hour, I abandoned my search in order to read my dad's intimate thoughts from December 24th, 1961 to July 25th, 1963. Although the consistency of his entries wanes after the first few months of my life, the intensity of his life is only amplified until it culminates in the last four words he entered.
I am providing the full journal below. I have added a few comments that are in brackets and the font is changed to blue. I have striven to maintain the original spelling and grammar...except where auto-correct has foiled my efforts..., so don't be surprised at the obvious errors. I have left them there on purpose.
I hope you are as intrigued as I was.....and, without further delay....
The Journal of Ralph R. DeCamp:
December 1961
Dec. 24 – Snowing will be a white Christmas. Marge & Sharon bought most of the
gifts. I had no money after the family
expenses. Freddie & Violet have no
work so must be helped. To-nite
Christmas eve we open our gifts. All
happy but Marge a little hurt because I could get her so little.
Dec. 25. Christmas
day. Cold-white & beautiful on the
Lord’s birthday. Our baby (me) due
soon. Marge & I spend the day
alone. She fixed a big dinner but the
children are all away. Alice &
Mariline drop in as we finish our late dinner
Alice eats a little.
Dec. 26 – First day of work on second shift. (Chevrolet)
Called home at 7:00 PM. Margie
having pains. Dutch picks me up at the
shop.
Dec 27 – 3:00 A.M.
Take Margie to hospitable. Mickey
drives us out. It has started to
snow Sharon working hard as usual at
baby sitting. Have been urging Bob to
get a job. Won’t work to-day.
Dec. 28 – No baby. Margie
having false labor pains. Its snowing
& colder. Won’t go to work to-day
Dec. 29 – Still no baby.
I’m tired but must go to- work.
It’s snowing hard this after-noon.
Lenard picks me up at hospitable.
Have a car accident on way to work.
Slide into a little compact car.
No damage to Lenards car
Dec. 30 – It’s Saturday morning. Cold but very beautiful this morning with the
sun shining on the new snow. Just as it
is suppose to be when baby is born
Margie pains getting worse & closer to-gether. Baby born at 11:02 A.M. A boy 6lbs 7ozs Mother & boy ok. I go to work.
Dec. 31. Out to see
Margie & Baby at hospitable. Bob has
fall at hospitable Must be checked
before we leave We drop Sharon off at
her friends home an arrive at home about 10:30pm Must name baby. Bob & I spend a quiet New Years eve
watching T.V. Gave Freddie & Violet
money to get along
1962
Jan. 1 – Margie & baby ok. We name the baby Michael Raymond. It’s brother Miles’ birth day The weather turning colder to-nite with wind.
Jan. 2 Cold &
windy Send Bob to look for work. No luck he says. Margie & Michael ok.
Jan. 3, Mickey drives
me out to bring home Margie & baby.
She buy gifts for the baby.
Jan. 4 All’s well at
our home. Sharon still working long
hours baby sitting for people. Bob &
Freddie have no work.
Jan. 5 God is
kind. All is well
Jan 6. Twenty-five
dollars to Freddies. He can’t find work
Jan 7. – Cold & sunny.
Bob was to look for work this week but it may be to-cold.
Jan 8 Monday very
cold. Bob doesn’t go out to look for
work. Red Foster pays ten dollars on old
debt
Jan 9. Very cold 12 below zero
Jan 10. Still very
cold. Below zero but sunny Margie sick
Jan 11 Margie no
better. It’s a little warmer to-day
Jan 12 Margie
better. She has gone to shop. Bought a coat dress purse shoes etc. I had a time at South way
Shopping-Center. Bags burst on me. Resacked them & brought cab home. Bob gets job at Meadows shopping center will go to work next week. Foster pays another ten on debt.
Jan 13 Saturday went
to Yorktown with Jack. Listened to ball
game. Came home to find I had forgotten
Freddie & Violet. They were here
& had to move. Gave them the usual
twenty-five dollars & got the move post poned
Jan 14 Sunday – Bob gets
a mean injury playing basketball.
Jan 15 Bob much
better. Goes to work I still working nites.
Jan 16 Have a nasty
cold
Jan 17 Cold no
better. Family ok
Jan 18 Cold
to-day. Gave Freddie his twenty-five
dollars for rent & groceries
Jan 19 Bought most of
our weeks grocerys to-day at South-way shopping Center Paid bill at Sears. Red Foster pays another Ten dollars on debt.
Jan 20 Paid bill at
Sears & finished shopping for grocerys.
Jan 21 Sabath –
Restful day – God is good to this house
Jan. 22 All well with
family
Jan 23 A cold but
sunny day Loads of sun shine this winter
Jan 24 – Margie about wore out
Jan. 25 Cold but
sunny. God is good to us. Bob says Freddie has job with furnace
man. Bob working as is Sharon Bought some groceries to day.
Jan 26 – Started raining early. Ground frozen. Water running off fast. Rivers full of ice will flood. Lenard brings me home with grocerys. Had a very hard nights work.
Jan 27 Saturday. Bob blows most of his first check for Watch
& lighter. Gave me four dollars for
board. Sharon has sun tan stuff all over
face, hands, and arms. She looks
terrible
Jan 28. The Lord’s
day. God has been good to us. Helped Freddie & Sharon with there income
tax forms.
Jan 29 – Robbie & Helen take Margie & Michael to
doctor for check up They’re ok. Baby is 20 ½ inches long. Weighs 8lbs 7oz. Bob stays all nite at John’s.
Jan. 30. Baby eats
his first solid food. Received check for
doctor.
Jan. 31 Cold wind
to-day. Freddie isn’t Working this week
so far. Bob goes to work. Bought some of our grocerys.
Feb. 1 Bob didn’t
come home last nite Fixed bath drains
today; also fixed tire for Boyle’s. Had
about 3 inches of snow last nite. It’s
cold. Freddie gets another 25 dollars.
Feb 2. – Ground-hog see shadow. Pay some bills & get grocerys. Foster pays another ten on debt.
Feb 3. Attended union
meeting. The Matchetts have there new
baby. A girl.
Feb 4. Over to see
the new baby at Mickeys. She’s very
pretty. The day is warm & there’s
plenty of sunshine. Tempeture in the
60s.
Feb 5. Bob off to
work this morning Sharon home. Has quit job.
They’re 57 dollars behind on her wages
Shes afraid they will never pay.
Baby fussing this morning.
Feb. 6 Very cold and
windy near zero
Feb. 7 Sharon
receives ten dollars of her back wages.
Warmer to-day.
Feb. 8. Baby sick with
it’s first cold. Makes me uneasy. Mickey baby sick; Sharon goes over to
help. Bob not working to-day; Don’t know
about Freddie.
Feb. 9 Snowing
to-day; about two inches Not so
cold. Bob gets fired. Freddie comes in with clothes. He & Frau have another quarrel. Willard Foster pays all of principal on old
loan with another Ten dollar payment.
Feb. 10. Clear skies
to-day. Must find means of getting more
grocerys
Feb. 11 The Lord day.
Feb. 12 Hard days
work.
Feb. 13 Slept late
cold feels better. The weather warmer
near 34◦
Feb. 14 A valentine
from Earle & Lois for the baby.
Michaels first. A check for ten
dollars inside. Marge buys baby bed. I
have a bad cold. Eyes watering &
nose running. Bob working tomorrow for
John.
Feb. 15 Still
warm. My cold no better. Bob off to work.
Feb. 16 Cold
to-day. Paid some bills and bought some
grocerys. Foster pays another ten
dollars on debt leaving a balance of only fifteen dollars.
Feb. 17 The orbiter
flight of John Glenn again postponed.
Freddie still working. Bob
working for John. Not happy.
Feb. 18 the Lord’s
Day. He is good to this home.
Feb. 19, Blue
Monday. Cold, windy with rain changing
to snow. Tomorrow the space flight of
John Glenn is again scheduled. May God
be with him.
Feb. 20 the space
flight of John Glenn is off. All is
well. Right now in 3 orbit. Michael has learn to play a little. His is growing fine. The sun is out. Its cold but nice out.
Feb 21. The flight of
John Glenn a great sucess. Had over two
inches of snow last nite & this morning.
Michael receives a card from the Shenk’s with a five dollar bill.
Feb. 22 Mickey pays
us a visit with her baby Laura Ann. Bob
didn’t get to work for John
Feb. 23 Freddie job
about to end. He received notice to
move. Landlady can’t stand their
fights. Bob not working to-day. Complaining of sore shoulder. Weather cold.
Looks like another storm brewing.
Feb. 23, Cont. Foster
pays debt in full. There’s a bad snow storm
going on. Some of the fellow go home
from work at supper time.
Feb 24. Bearcats win
the Sectional. Violet spends the night
here. Freddie out messing around.
Feb. 25 Violet goes
home to mother. Freddie doesn’t seem to
care. Went with Jack over to Clints
& then back to his place. All there
children are well & so much fun. The
Lord’s day a pleasant one. Warm &
the snow leaving fast.
Feb. 26 the baby goes
to the doctor’s to-day for check up.
Snow nearly gone. Freddie goes on
rampage again. Completely wrecked Sharon’s
room upsetting all the furniture & slashing most of Sharons clothing. Margie call police but he leaves.
Baby ok. Now weighs
11lbs 3z.
Feb. 27 Margie cleans
up mess in Sharon’s room. I’m so
discouraged. May God help us. Its cold.
Feb. 28. Very
cold. Walk home from work. (2 miles)
Lenard sick. Stopped grocery on
way home from work. Bought what I could
carry.
March 1. Very
cold. Mickey pays us a visit. There baby sure is a beauty. Michael good today. Mickey takes Sharon over to Leo Darts home to
try to get some of her money. He refused
to give her any of it; also got real nasty with her.
March 2. Still very
cold. Paid the bills today. The baby very cross. Freddie picks up his last check.
March 3 Freddie stops
in a minute. That’s all I know. Ramsey called wants to buy Margie old
car. Still very cold.
March 4. Freddie
& Violet move back in home. He blowed
all his money on an old car; had no place to sleep nor money for food. It’s cold & snowing
March 5 Freddie &
Violet sleep on floor. It’s still cold
& snowing. The little one (Michael)
is ok. Wants to play some now.
March 6 Had another
snow storm last nite. About 4 or 5
inches with some drifts. Sharon wants to
marry. The man, Bill Sours. Will try to get the Judges ok to-day. Helen keeping the baby while they go to town.
March 6. Con. Sharon
to marry to-morrow. Wants me at
wedding. Will have to miss work & we
need the the money desperatly. Freddie
& Violet will have to live in until he gets a steady job.
March 7 Ash
Wednesday. Sharon and Bill were married
to-day at 6:00 P.M. in the South Side Baptist Church. Reverend David Davison perform the cermony.
March 8. Rainney
& chilly. Bill leaves for Camp Dix
New Jersey to-morrow
March 9. Bill gone
back to camp. Sharon home.
March 10. Listened to
the basket ball game Muncie lost to
Anderson.
March 11 Cloudy &
warm. Slept late. Tooth ake for several days now. Production raised at Chevrolet Now running 640 per day; up 50
March 12 Cloudy &
rain. First day of new production
schedule; 650 per day
March 13. Marge takes
baby over to Mickey’s Violet worried
about Freddie Bob working for John. Cold with snow mixed with rain.
March 14 Cold &
cloudy. Marge very nervis.
March15 Freddie a big
worry. Baby not well.
March 16. Bought some
grocerys.
March 17 More
grocerys to buy. Sharon wants to go see
her husband.
March 18 The Lord’s
day. All well.
March 19 Still quite
cold
March 20. Took Bob to
doctor yesterday for a banged up nose. Its
not broken but must be taped up.
March 21 Michael
better. Freddie fixing up his Mothers old
car.
March 22 Sharon
returns from South Carolina & visit with Bill.
March 23 Freddie not
working. Things are bad here at home.
March 24 First day of
sun shine in over a week.
March 25, The Lord’s Day.
Cloudy but not so cold. Have not
had one warm day this year
March 26 Some sun
to-day. Robbie & Helen take Margie
& Baby to doctor. Michael gets some
shots. He now weighs 13 lb. & 5 oz.;
23 ½ inches in height
March 27. Michael sleeping. The day sunny & warmer.
March 28 – Nice day
March 29 Received light
bill $21.27. A back breaker. The sun is shining. It’s warm & windy. Margie washing to-day.
March 30 – Cool & cloudy. Paid the bills & bought grocerys.
April 7, Cold &
windy. Bought more grocerys.
April 8 the Lord
day. Rain Michael has his first cold. Freddie & Violet still a big worry. Bob’s cold no better
April 9, Rain. Sharon in Indianapolis for over a week. Staying with her sister-in-law.
April 10 Warm &
sunny. Michael cross with cold.
April 19. Round of
colds has hit the family. Michael
better. Bobby at Brazil. Sharon at her sister-in-laws. Freddie no job as yet. It’s hard to meet the
bills. It’s a bright day.
April 30 – Have our first spring rain with thunder &
lightning. It came as a climax of a week
of warm day & nights.
May 6. Another
rain. It’s been a dry spring. Cool after the rain
May 8. Another rain
last night Freddie working in Filling
station.
May 28, The long dry
spell is ended. Have had 3 nice rains in
as many day. The peonies are blooming
but won’t last long Freddie & Violet
have there own place now. Bob stay with
John. Sharon home yesterday &
to-day. Michael recovering from bad
cold. As of last Saturday he now turns
over by him self. Weight 16 lb 6 oz May 11.
Twenty 25 inches in height
June 18 Hot to-day
after several very pleasant days.
Perhaps it will rain. Michael
doing well. Weight 17 lb 15 oz as of the
11th of this month; 25 inches long.
Bob gone most of the time Freddie
& Violet still having their troubles.
Some one stole their rent money.
Freddie fired because of spark plugs missing at station while he was on
duty. Sharon starts restruant work
to-day.
Dec. 14 Robert in the
Army; left the Dec. 12. Sharon has an
apartment. Still have to keep Freddie
& Violet. They can’t find work. Michael cut his first tooth September
12. Had 3 more less than a month
later. Gets all over the house crawling
& walking around things Says a few
words.
The last few days in November were really unusual; lasted
until the 4th of Dec. Real
Indian summer quiet sunny days with
temperatures in or near 70◦s. This week
is very cold. Below zero with some snow
here & heavy snow north near lakes.
Dec 27. Cold &
clear to-day. Zero weather to-day &
a prommise of the same for to-morrow.
Nice Xmas. Michael loves the
Christmas tree. He won’t touch. Much be the wonder of it. Robert goes back to Camp Knox New Years. Must be there the second.
1963
Jan. 12 Margie took
Michael to the doctor Thursday. He weighs
21 lb 13 oz. Is 29 ½ inches in
height. Freddie still without work. Have a letter from Bob at Fort Knox. He’s doing ok. Sharon has an apartment. The weather has been warm & the snow
gone. It’s turning much colder
to-day. Margie over the Flu; now leaving
for the shopping center.
Jan. 13 Very cold
this Sunday. All ok Checking accounts & find myself in a bad
way. Must write a letter to Bob.
Feb. 10 Quiet
Sabbath. Michael some better. Winter hanging in there. It snowing a little to-day. Have a army group picture from Bob.
Feb. 17. A quiet
Sabbath. Freddie in deep trouble. Sharon has a car. Wrote another letter to Bob. Filed my gross taxes.
March 3 Michael
started walking the 26 of February.
Helen and Robbie taught him with a cigarrette lighter he wanted. Had a heavy snow last Friday about like last
year. Worked over time again. Make the third week. Bear-Cats win the Sectional. Freddie still in jail. Bob doing his for Uncle Sam. I’m very discouraged.
March 11 – Cold and rainy.
Freddie’s lawyer to try for lower bond.
All are well except for cases of nerves
Sharon here for a little while Sunday.
Bob called. Needed money which I
couldn’t spare. Work six days the past
two weeks May God be with us & love
us! “Bear-Cats” win at New Castle
Regional.
March 17. Cloudy
& warm. All are well this quiet
Sabbath day. Have hope for Freddie
now. May God be with us. The “Bear-Cats” win Semi-finals at
Indianapolis. Have worked the last three
Saturdays “by the grace of God.” No letter
from Bobby this week.
March 24, A very
lovely Sabbath with sunny skies. No word
from Robert this past week. Freddie home
on bond. Sharon some better after a
nervis collapse. Michael ok. “Bear Cats” win state Crown 65 to 61
Worked six days but finnacial standing very precarious. Had so many extra expenses
April 1st
Very warm & nice this morning after raining all day yesterday. Lord has been good.
July 25 The weather
hot. Having some rain after long dry
spell. Things are very
discouraging. Freddie in trouble again
an in jail. Was jailed July 13 for
forgery. This time he was played for a
sucker.
Robert in Alaska for a couple of months Seems to be doing
better.
The basement & garage full of Freddie & Sharons
junk. Very depressing to look upon.
Margie some better from a bad ulcer.
Michael doing fine.
Was 32” in height and weighed 23 lbs at 18 months
Am losing all hope
wow, that really was interesting, I was trying to figure out how old my dad was and I figure he was 16 because I thought my mom sent he went into the army at 16 (lied on his paperwork). sounds like grandma and grandpa were very humble people and struggled a lot to get work and groceries and keep their family going. Even asking my dad to work at such a young age, as opposed to going to school?? crazy, and the winters there, wow that seemed very depressing at times, especially you can hear his heart breaking when freddie or my dad ends up in trouble. so heavy on his heart. Thanks for sharing this! very very interesting and it made me feel like a fly on the wall back then. neat. are you still in amazement at the christmas tree? ha ha, love the image I have of you as a baby staring up at the christmas tree! Love you, Bobbie
ReplyDeleteBobbie,
ReplyDeleteI think the whole work vs school thing was your dad's idea. I'm pretty sure he dropped out on his own...but, after he did, dad wanted him working. I could be wrong about that, but that's what I think I've heard in the past. And, once again I've reached a point in my life where I find the Christmas tree to be wondrous. Uncle Mike
That last line put up against so many Sabbath Day praises even when things weren't great is what makes this piece which could have been ordinary be anything but that. I got a kick out of your dad keeping an exact record as most people - and usually the mother - only take time to do for their Firstborn. It's amazing considering his age and your place as youngest in the family. You were pretty cranky in his records LOL! My mom said I never stopped crying the entire first 3 months of my life. Guess I was more than cranky!! :-) just realizing what a great man he was for supporting his daughter when her husband didn't is inspiring. $25 was a lot of money back then and he gave it so many times. It became a big source of his depression. A strong man brought to a back breaking place by a lazy and criminal man. I wonder if Freddie (aka"Sicko") ever saw the light and repented for real. I can only hope so. Which is more than he ever gave your dad.
ReplyDeleteA point of clarification. The previous comment is mixing up two different people. "Freddie" was my brother, and he was a troubled soul. You can read a story about him at: http://caaampersthoughts.blogspot.com/2011/04/muncie-boyhood-switches-and-crying.html
ReplyDelete"Sicko," who was my sister's not-so-nice husband, didn't come into the picture for another decade after my father's journal ends. There isn't even a glimpse of him in this story.